i just turned thirty, i’m lost in life

the only thing i care for is uncertainty

the only thing i love is terrifyingly distant

the only thing i want it uncertainty

the only thing for me is time i suppose

whats right is distant

whats here is now

how do you find the path?

i miss you more everyday

to feel that warm embrace

will come back in years as questions

i’ll stop now

from what is right

there is a future

i know it

but cannot pretend to know it all

just what feels right

in my heart and soul

good night.

i feel [nee, hope] that i am in the middle of a scenario such as this:

http://www.boingboing.net/2009/03/02/emotionally-unavaila.html

things are strained, but i have so much optimism for the future, that just this once, i’ll ask you all to forget about the subheading of ye ole blog. i do have hope and there is a tomorrow, and that future appears to me as the brightest thing imaginable. i am thankful for all the patience that has been shown me in the past two weeks,as i have made a fool of myself. seeing that understanding and support makes my love even stronger.

thank you.