and then stand with your head in a cage.

i havent been able to sleep for the past 2 nights.

i adore the way her breath blows across my face.

i wish she held me like she cradles her cat.

most likely not.

with every relationship ive had that reached a point of nightly cohabitation of a single bed there has been a change to where i forgo sleeping close to/intertwined with my companion and instead allowed myself to rest comfortably [in what ever position allows that]. most often this occurs when see my shoulders and elbows are a tangled mess of stretched, torn, and missing ligaments and such, so they are a bit hurting at all times and even more so when left in one position for too long. iv come to that point again, but this time its not due to the regular reason, its that i can’t sleep. with her i want to be so close as to never let go, but thinking as such, i think too much and therefore it takes me hours to pass out. everfything, everyday, every second with her is the best ever [and even when that is not so true, one glance or change in expression or intonation set it all back in place. there are times when i get lost and cant think anymore and become fixated on one thought…then gradually sleep comes and pushes it away, but now its returning every night, same time, same channel.