at this point, rejection has become a fully ingrained part of my life, i fell as though dissapearing would serve me best.

its funny that i allow the fears that precluded my trip to become so real after having the best embrace that i’ve felt in a long time, then hear their laughter leaking in from the next room and nothing but jealousy comes from it, i feel like i;’ve been regulated to the kids table at thanksgiving. i want to go home due to this…i wait for a call…im done.