there is so much excitement from just a simple phone call cuased giddiness that i cant explain, esecially due to its unexpectedness. despite a lack of abode the immediate future seems not but fun, all i have to do is make it through the super bowl and im to freedom. again there is the looming possibilty of dissapointment and failure but i push it aside for anticipation of seeing those i long to. its odd that the same drunkenness that brings about such excitment can also fill me with such a fear of all that can go wrong. there were times when this could have been worded such smoother but i have lost the inspireation and hope to find it again, a time when i thought i wrote for one person to read has past…

[that’s so gay]