its snowy and cold, i have to work and my shoes are soaked.

this is nuts.

this was gonna be an entry about haveing a good day go bad baseed on remebering more and more as i went throughout the day, i wrot it in my head in the shower and i was cool with metaphors n shit, that went to hell.

i finished that mix, ill give it to you in person…

bye bye.

saw blonde redhead last week, by myself again, it was incredible, but helped my mental state in no way.

feel better than i did last night, won a new phone on ebay, as my old one has been steadily declining since i got back from europe. now im looking into all that pick locks with a bic pen stuff and havent been able to do it to any of the 4 in my house while listening to some ice cube. i think once i get all the music things am trying to locate right now im gonna use the name “slack babbath” it will be just as pointless as everything else. now ill see if they actually call tonight, if not its 9/11 conspiracy theory dvd night.

i sit at home alone everynight no matter where i am.

in other news, this is really beautiful.

i will be trying the bay area soon, but not soon enough.

hi, happy national holiday [first celebrated as such from a decree by abraham lincoln] day to you. now let me get this off my chest: fuckshit=damnmotherfuckerbastardsassshitfuckdamnitpiss. thanks. umm i talked at work with owner girl and now am thrown back into dissarray as to when or if i will ever leave this place as i am now told that things are gauranteed to change as of january3rd.

umm i won an alesis air fx on ebay and want to play with it right now, first i need to invent a particle transmitter or some such. next i need to win a kaoss pad and an air synth so i cam be loud and obnoxious.

buttons do different things on macs and pc.

my mom wants to steal my mono cd, she also thinks it was in a movie and i dont know if shes a liar or not, any help on that?

i live in boulder again, i wish i was still homeless.

its time to make the tofu, enjoy.

i cant get www.freeipods to work, im pissed, i like free stuff. im also pissed cause its snowing and i really wanted to ride this weekend. plus i have no one to drink with, so i might not even drink tonight. i went to chicago and saw the pixies with carrie [who i had never met before, thanks to harper and his internet friends, as he had never met her either]. it was sweet.

i was gonna dig out a nail tonight but instead got sucked down memory lane, as i head east with an unknow compainion i still dont know where to end up. here i just sit, therre is noithing for me here. why, how can you argue? the machines will win. im not drunk. im sick of this. please fill the rest of your time here with more stupid meaningless cliches, as i am to preoccupied with living in the past to be concerned for you well being. this makes me miserable, but i cant say goodnight. i act natural, tell the truth, you wont come back, to far gone, should have made some attempt years ago. apparently im good with words, but know that im to shy to say. so i stand here dumbfounded and repeat: “no, no, i understand.”

p.s. i got a gmail, its= my aim name (a)gmail.com
like i get anything but spam anyway…

ok, so o.d.b. [a.k.a.: Osirus, Joe Bannanas, Dirt McGirt, Dirt Dog, Unique Ason and Big Baby Jesus, et al.]died, im bummed, im mean he was one of my official in the box on myspace “heros” the man picked up welfare checks in a limo. im an idiot and could have attended what was his last ever show in fort collins on wednesday, but instead will regret it for the rest of my life, im really sad about this.

really, im not kidding.

i stayed up late/early and watched spykids [one of the dumpster dvds]
heres some mixes to try and cheer you up. not working, sorry, oh well.

le tigre was great, going there by myself [and leaving in a similar manner] was not great. check the new flavor of the month for good bad-ness.

its late, i just added a link to a page about my friend chris hallman in the artists links, check out his photos, he rules. i just watched “the man who wasn’t there” and am convinced that it is the best shot film ever, but am open to rival suggestions. right now im stuck trying and thinking once again of moving away, im gonna try a week in san fransisco in mid december and see if that works out. i want to talk about possible secanrios, but im not sure if my ideas are just products of my otherwise unstimulated overactive imagination. my chain broke on friday and i stigmata-ed myself pretty good, then tim sherwin and i rode on saturday. harpers’ trying to get some girl he only knows from the net to go to chicago to see the pixies with me but i havent heard anything from her, so i’ll probablly fly there alone, which is a retarded idea, as im fucking broke, but seemed like a good one back in april when i bought the tickets. somebody got fired at fatty’s so now ill be working more, which is good. i missed napalm death and cannibal corpse tonight, but le tigre is tomorrow. i wish i was able to be more direct. right now im toying with the idea of shaving my entire body, i’d need to get some razors. but then again, i just got some spam for cheap cigarettes, so maybe i’ll start smoking to kill some time instead.

the new bright eyes doesnt help the situation per-say.

how nuts will the republicans go if kerry wins the electoral vote but bush wins the popular vote? i’m sure he’ll just gracefully conceed the way gore did in 2000. right?

i just watched 9 hours of election coverage, i am dummer for it. halloween party at gapter house was good, drunken strangers to the scene attempted to fight me based on my musical choices and mixing sensabilities, then i played hip-hop and they danced, which was cool cause i dont really ever play that sort of thing, but i managed to loot nics records for their inhierent goodness. plus i didnt blow up my hand, as seen on the 4th of july episode of my life. still homeless, cant decide if ii want to/will stay here longer than december or not…