its funny how im always excited to get home (as much as being back in boulder with no residence can be home) and then i spend less that 24 hours here and feel as though im done with all i want to do. the opportunities here have proven to be false due to the infighting of others so i immediatley think of leaving once again. at the same time i become overwhelmed, wanting to run back to the warm sheets i reluctantly left in pennsylvania, and at the same time i want to make this decision im held back by self-doubt, which really is the best kind.