“i hate crowds, but i love a gathering”….it is easy to make me uncomfortable in public. i cant stand being helped in stores. today someone attempted this repeatedly and after the 4th time he talked to me i turned, looked at him and just walked away. it’s unfortunate to say, but the only time i’ve been totally comfortable in a large crowd was either that night club i went to in china[other than my father and sister, i knew no one within a few thousand miles], or when im pretty well drunk [ala chicago, but then i became very very uncomfortable, fizzy water in the eyes will do that]. i dont get it because i do enjoy going out and meeting people, but im so uncomfortable at the same time that i clam up and stare into corners.

blah blah blah, enough crap for tonight, im actually happy, my back has receded under my skin so i can stand and move again, no more laying on the floor for me, no sir. mobility is where its at.