perhaps i am too besotted? i feel a non-connected togetherness, for the first time i feel as though i am on the lower of the two scales that comprise the unequal balance of a relationship. in the past i have always been a casual bystander to anothers advances, but now i feel as though i am the one who is lesser and must therefore be the persuant…it is as though an ideal has been discovered but remains out of reach and fleeting…so much is answered, yet so many questions arise from a simple gaze that i become uncomfortable through the directness, yet leary from the explainations that come forth…i fear that i have become enamored, yet am afraid to admit it to whom it applies too, im sorry, you know who you are, i hope you understand this, i anticipate your return, but fear your response..often times things get to a hieghtened level and i dont know what to do, this is a textbook example of such…i cannot decide if that which i must do is mearly influenced by others, or is a true example of my real feelings…i need to stop with the elipses…ahhh drunken entries, revealing truths i would other wise be afraid to admit

in non personal excess, fuck macdonalds and the anti dairy hormone voters. apparently due to the new all white meat mcnugget, chicken prices have skyrocketed, as micky deez has been buying all the white meat they can find, screwing every other distributer and vendor. that combined with a similar effect of a new law outlawing a certain bovine hormone [which created a more than 100% jump in dairy prices] makes things tight around the pizza world, i now realize that everything is connected, thankyou for the lesson, thank you pizza, you pay my bills…

damn, again with the elipses, cut that shit out.