ever been in a situation where you just want to run up to a person on the street and be like, “damn baby, you so fine! how can i get with you?” but you know you can’t because its obvious that they are at least a little bit more refined than that? having known the person as an aquantance for a few years makes it even more akward, trust me. theres this girl who i thnik is a total badass but i have no ins. im a total broke ass dirt-bag and shes quite the fancy dresser/big spender/on her way to a phd type. it angers me when things like this come up because it leads to a near total shutdown of communications on my part. i guess i feel like: well, that would have been nice but its doomed from the start so why bother? in the back of my mind there’s this ideal situation but then this girl talks and i dont understand half the words cause im an idiot, and then i go on and werite stupid shit like this and now im worse of than i started.

[computer still dead, using school ones is lame, but free and free = good]