today, despite doing nothing was awesome. pretty much all i did was wake up at 4, have a tasty salad then ride in denver for multiple hours, i don’t know why but i am very happy. it feels as though i have a great connection with all the things i enjoy right this instant. for some reason i dont think i have any worries in my life which is good. somehow i have blocked out all the things that bring me down. this is most likely due to having a good week, but i do have to work tomorrow so i might be mad ass hell this time in 24 hours, most likely not though. hopefully work will be slow so i leave early and then i will either ride or goto a movie with whoknows who. its wierd that although i am happy here i keep thinking about getting away, i guess its cause im planning a few trips so travel is always on my mind. its also due to me riding really well in the past few days. its like a wall has been overcome, i’ve just been trying and pulling stuff that have seemed hard in the past. i’ve always been scared of some things, but i just havent been caring lately, is that good or bad? i say good cause what else am i gonna do, its not like i have a second chance at this. as a good friend of mine says, “the only answer to any question starting with “why?” is cause fuck you, thats why.” if someone doesen’t understand your actions, for the most part its not worth explaining to them. just recently i’ve met a few people who live their lives sheltered and scared, because they always think of what others will/do think of the choices they make. i try to tell them that others thoughts matter for naught, but i dont think they get it. if your happy why does it matter what other people think of you. i guess if you’re hitler this doesn’t count, but in average day-to-day life the thoughts of others amass to a large pile of shit. if i took it to heart every time i got a dirty look i would have been dead long ago. the fact is that if you are having fun, who gives a shit what someone else thinks of you or your actions. so what if you are broke, did you have fun today? at the end of it all, nothing else matters. if you don’t get it, then i repeat: “cause fuck you thats why”