coming as soon as i have a reliable net connection and figure out all my old ftp shit.

and when i relearn html.

i just turned thirty, i’m lost in life

the only thing i care for is uncertainty

the only thing i love is terrifyingly distant

the only thing i want it uncertainty

the only thing for me is time i suppose

whats right is distant

whats here is now

how do you find the path?

i miss you more everyday

to feel that warm embrace

will come back in years as questions

i’ll stop now

from what is right

there is a future

i know it

but cannot pretend to know it all

just what feels right

in my heart and soul

good night.

i feel [nee, hope] that i am in the middle of a scenario such as this:

http://www.boingboing.net/2009/03/02/emotionally-unavaila.html

things are strained, but i have so much optimism for the future, that just this once, i’ll ask you all to forget about the subheading of ye ole blog. i do have hope and there is a tomorrow, and that future appears to me as the brightest thing imaginable. i am thankful for all the patience that has been shown me in the past two weeks,as i have made a fool of myself. seeing that understanding and support makes my love even stronger.

thank you.

MillerCoors Backs Down on Sparks Drink

rereading all my old posts… this was still one of the best weekends ever [there have been better, but none that i have detailed so well]

http://www.proxientunit.com/2003/08/24/jersey-that-pretty-much-sums-it-up/

enjoy.

last [2007 style last] june i shaved my head:

i didn’t cut an inch [well, shaved the beard a few times] until july of this year [2008]:

this basically shows that regardless of hairstyle, i am a bad ass.

apparently people are upset over this [apparently in the UK it has been banned and dj’s have been fired / suspended for playing it, more here]. from that i especially like the explanation from mr. rhymes that he “meant to pay homage to Arab culture.” interestingly, i read a blurb about it from dj/ ruputure where he says that the “arab/farsi/whathaveyou” looped in the chorus is actually nonsense.

i’m myself am most let down by how lame busta’s new video is, as he was responsible for this at one time:

oh how the mighty have fallen.

for the other side of the creative / interest / genre / world, check out this site for a mashup album made using only music and samples from david lynch film. haven’t listened yet, but have high hopes.

1. book venue for music show

2. set up a full stage replica of what ever instruments big black played, basically, guitar, bass, drum machine.

3. promote show as “michael philip oliver mcneill as “.steve.or.something.” performs “big black”s “atomizer” in it’s entirety

4. proceed to walk onto stage alone, press play on an ipod to start the album playing in it’s entirety.

5. slowly start doing some noise stuff until big black is no longer audible, leaving you with just a wall of noise. perhaps with the instruments on stage, perhaps not…

6. profit!

i know nothing about setting up a performance art piece [i think this falls in that category] or if i should just do it as a show at a regular club / venue. plus it would be odd to not be headlining, and i feel that would be imperative to the whole thing.

find yet another interesting word in the first definintion, continue until death:

part 2:

minstrel show
 
–noun
a popular stage entertainment featuring comic dialogue, song, and dance in highly conventionalized patterns, performed by a troupe of actors, traditionally comprising two end men and a chorus in blackface and an interlocutor: developed in the U.S. in the early and mid-19th century.
Origin:
1865–70, Americanism

part 3:

Aâ‹…merâ‹…iâ‹…canâ‹…ism
   /əˈmɛrɪkəˌnɪzəm/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [uh-mer-i-kuh-niz-uhm] Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1. a custom, trait, or thing peculiar to the United States of America or its citizens.
2. a word, phrase, or other language feature that is especially characteristic of the English language as spoken or written in the U.S.
3. devotion to or preference for the U.S. and its institutions.
4. anything, as a custom or word, peculiar to America.
Origin:
1775–85, Americanism; American + -ism

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Americanism_(heresy)

part 4:

IPA Pronunciation

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/International_Phonetic_Alphabet

part 5:

lexâ‹…iâ‹…cogâ‹…raâ‹…phy
   /ˌlɛksɪˈkɒgrəfi/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [lek-si-kog-ruh-fee] Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1. the writing, editing, or compiling of dictionaries.
2. the principles and procedures involved in writing, editing, or compiling dictionaries.
Origin:
1670–80; lexic(on) + -o- + -graphy

that got boring fast.

there are fires the sky and air are death laden, it would be nice to have taken pictures of them and numerous things recently, but the autofocus on my lens has been dead for a few months now and every time i pull out ye olde camera it just gets me more upset so i stow it away out of sight and thought until the next time i want to shoot something. and then i want to shoot something [get it? wordplay!!!]

workwise its been up and down, pussycat dolls and jonas brothers and miley cyrus oh my [and one for her dad farther back] something for a aero-related company that will be showing at the smithsonian, and a bunch more stuff with irv blitz [insert creepy youtube homage here]:

all we shoot is the product / beauty shots of food, and refrigerators, and jewelry, and search for the perfect coffee bean and slice of cheese, only to ruin them all under hundreds of degrees of lighting [i.e. using over 20 20kw lights to shoot a new wrap for popeyes chicken].

running off now, ta.

read

i’m too sleepy to expound, i had a dream that started with synchronized car driving, then moved to screaming at rightwing fanatical protesters while walking through a church, then coming across the rolling stones playing in said church, but all i could focus on was how badly their instruments were wired [and they all had bushy cop mustaches], then i ended up making omelets for a bunch of people including david bowie, who was the priest.

i rode my bike for a half hour or so and realize that i am lacking in the bike riding ability department currently. working too much? but need the money. cleaned up after a low budget horror shoot on friday, so much fake blood and feathers to clean. did a fun “get out and vote” type thing earlier in the week for gap with norman lear, mark cuban, bill maher, perez hilton [showed up 2 hours late as the last person on the last day…],cameron sinclair [funny as we were shooting him when the earthquake hit, he is a leader in architecture in disaster areas and the like], the cool kids, john picard, and some others.

the earthquake was odd, my only other one happened in pennsylvania when i was 7 or so and asleep. this time i was standing under a large light on a sound stage and wasn’t sure what was going on, especially as it was such a long lasting quake. some of the agency people started to run for the door, but then it was over and we went right back to shooting. my legs felt wobbly for the rest of the day.

now i will walk dogs and then decide between more bikes or knocking another check off my netflix queue…

computers all dead, borrowing a friends with a one month expiration date. after lil wayne, it was four days in the desert for calvin klein, then three hellish ones for vh1 with a 20 year old set from a short lived sitcom.

at least i updated…

also did the “to be continued” part, which is the video for “got money” then did a female solo hard rock what have you that also featured the drummer from no doubt.

hung at the beach for the 4th, slept in a tent on a hard backyard.

dad was here for two days, not enough time to do anything, so we did nothing.

had an interview at volume bikes / demolition parts last week….

please be careful.

on a roll, can’t stop now.

i want:

found it on ffffound, where it was linked to dezeen, but cant find it there…

about how i had scabies?

that shit was awesome!

also, i got to work with josh brolin last week, dude was in goonies!

how to log onto my blog!!!

what that means for you?

nothing.

hooray!

part 1:

find an interesting word:

“interlocutor”

Main Entry:
in·ter·loc·u·tor Listen to the pronunciation of interlocutor
Pronunciation:
\ˌin-tər-ˈlä-kyə-tər\
Function:
noun
Etymology:
Latin interloqui to speak between, issue an interlocutory decree, from inter- + loqui to speak
Date:
1514

1 : one who takes part in dialogue or conversation
2 : a man in the middle of the line in a minstrel show who questions the end men and acts as leader

stay tuned for part 2, ad infinitum…

1. possibly found a place to live… should be good, and cheap. [a good thing]

to offset that:

2. my car hasnt started in about two, maybe three weeks, therefore im biting the bullet and taking it in on tuesday to be gouged.

3. i think i may have broken something in my left shoulder. trying to decide if i can afford to go to a hospital for that.

how are you?